Facebook

So recently (under friends' heavy urgings) I activated a facebook account for myself. I don't really know why as I was not particularly interested. I was just curious mostly... what's all this fuss about? Well, upon entry into the database, I took a look around.

Initially you plug in all kinds of information about yourself and are given the option to post pictures of you and your family, information about hobbies, work... even a little blurb about what you are currently doing at that exact moment. With the click of some buttons, you are added to the database and matched up with all kinds of "people you may know." And wow! It was unbelievable to see so MANY names and faces pop up that I hadn't seen in months or even years. Some you've actually spent some time wondering about, and some who just seem vaguely familiar, at this point.

Nevertheless, everyone seems to be looking shiny, happy, and all grown up, and it was fun to quietly spend some time with them again, occasionally whispering to myself...

"New York for you, really?! Still in Tallahassee? You're friends with her?! Ahhh, check out his cute kids. She never got married?! Huh. Yeah, he still looks like a jerk. Chuckle."

I checked the clock, and before I knew it, I'd spent an hour silently catching up on people. See, it's a time consuming job to see if your once upon a time mental template for so-and-so's adult life ended up matching with his/her current day reality. Kinda fun.

But as sure as this computer is thrusting names at me, I took a moment to consider the likelihood that I'm being offered up at the corner of their screen. Well, what if they don't want to see me? Hmm... the sensation was a little bit like walking into a full throttle party in some cool kid's apartment. But as you step through the door and smile, the music stops and everyone pauses their enthralling conversations to glance your way. And then someone says, "What are YOU doing here?"

99% of the friends who'd urged me to do this said the exact same phrase at the mention of Facebook. "It's addicting." One wise girl out there, however, coupled it with the words, "social drama." Hmm... my initial feeling is that I may agree with the latter. You have to ask to be friends with someone. What if they don't want to befriend you? What if they don't even remember you? Or what if you don't remember them? Hmmm.. what if someone even REJECTS you?

So here I am... I'm sticking to my safe little blog world. Facebook account - deactivated. It's just not for me. The party can resume, people. Laughing.